Well...............................................I am not sure what to say! I am so heartbroken but I know that this is the right thing and it is time for me to go home. I have just had so much peace since I realized what needed to happen and I have truly felt the acceptance of the Lord. I know he has accepted my labor as I have served with my heart might mind and strength. I have given it my all and I really have nothing left to give. I have truly loved my mission. It has changed my life. The person that will get off the plane is not the same person that left. I am so grateful my heart is overflowing with gratitude for the love I feel from the Savior, the mission and those I have served. I can't even imagine or believe how blessed I am. The last few days I have been going through pictures and journals and wow I am just blown away by how amazing this adventure has been. This is truly the work of the Lord. I love this quote "Christ changes men and changed men can change the world." Christ has changed me and now its time for me to change the world. I am going to have to come home and rest for a while until I start getting better but after that its time to take off into an amazing new life. On our missions, we are reborn. If we let the atonement work inside of us, we become born of God as Alma the Younger says. On Friday night I prayed to know if this is really the right thing and I was thinking about Bob and Grandpa and what they would think about me going home early- if I was giving up. And all the sudden I heard this voice that said "we are so proud of you" and then into my head popped the image of Joseph Smith with Heavenly Father and Christ looking down on him. I knew it that instant that its time for me to go home, my work is done and I have made my Father proud. I am so grateful for everything I have experienced since I have been out. I am grateful for all the trials and at times the fiery furnace that has strengthened my testimony and taught me to rely on the Spirit. I want you all to know I know that Jesus Christ lives. He is our Savior and I know without a doubt that this is His church and His work. I have loved to wear His name on my chest for the last 16 months, but his name will be on my heart for the rest of my life. Living the Gospel of Jesus Christ is the only way to find true happiness and peace. There is a contentment in living the Gospel that we can't find anywhere else.
I love you all so much. Thank you for all the support and love and I will see you soon :)